The ins and outs of Me

In response to: "why?" 102 days old
by Pinkabell [Member]

Yeah, maybe you're right. I think I just feel that he only wants to see me when he has nothing better to do and other than that he won't get in contact. Then again, I suppose I haven't got in contact with him either. Maybe I am just feeling a bit defensive and am trying to stop myself getting hurt again. I'll have to see what happens when we ha more…

In response to: "why?" 102 days old
by brokendownangel ^Pro

Seems a bit harsh - maybe he is just giving you time to get your work done? more…

In response to: "why?" 102 days old
by Pinkabell [Member]

I think that really we don't seem to want the same things anymore. I don't really know how I feel about that. At the moment I've got a deadline for my dissertation, due in next week. So until I've completed that I don't want to contact him because I want to concentrate on that. After that I do plan to sit down and talk to him to find out exactl more…

In response to: "why?" 102 days old
by brokendownangel ^Pro

If you have to play these destructive games with him you should ask yourself why? Sit him down and ask him what he wants, you owe it to yourself to demand some respect and if he wants what you do then fair enough but if not then I hope you respect yourself enough to deal with it x more…

In response to: "Food" 191 days old
by brokendownangel ^Pro

don't be daft - its my choice! more…

In response to: "Food" 191 days old
by Pinkabell [Member]

Yeah I hope so. Good point, I normally love my food too much to miss it!

Feel a bit mean talking about food when you're following that intense diet! Well done for doing it though. xx more…

In response to: "Food" 191 days old
by brokendownangel ^Pro

Sounds sorted to me! Anyway you haven't been well and with all that sleeping you really didn't have either the time or the inclination to eat :) more…

In response to: "'Dinner'?" 191 days old
by Pinkabell [Member]

Yeah. I was beating myself up about it at first - when I couldn't get to sleep the first night and couldn't work out where I stood but as you say put it down to a night of passion and I can't change it so what's the point in worrying about it now. Plus I had a good time too so I suppose that's the main thing and whatever happens things will sort more…

In response to: "'Dinner'?" 191 days old
by brokendownangel ^Pro

Whose using who? You had a great evening and the inevitable happened - dont' beat yourself up about it. It was good and you like and fancy each other. I hope for your sake it goes somewhere but even if it doesn't just put it down to a night of passion that you wouldn't change anyway.
Glad you are getting back to independence - it will help more…

In response to: "Just wondering...need a bit of advice please :)" 192 days old
by Pinkabell [Member]

Thank you so much. It really does help my head to write things down and I always always really appreciate your advice! X more…

In response to: "Just wondering...need a bit of advice please :)" 194 days old
by brokendownangel ^Pro

I think it's great that you are gonna concentrate on you, when you are back to full strength, then maybe you could meet on your terms and you could tell him how you have been feeling cos of his behaviour, but at the moment i think it would just set you back a good way.
Good luck with it all hun, whatever you decide to do, I will always be her more…

In response to: "Just wondering...need a bit of advice please :)" 194 days old
by Pinkabell [Member]

Oops. I should have probably read this earlier this morning. I ended up emailing him. I told him that I felt like he was using me when it was convenient for him and that had been why I had started to feel used before and chucked him out in the first place. He did reply, twice. For some reason he said he is still interested in meeting up - 'but it's more…

In response to: "Just wondering...need a bit of advice please :)" 195 days old
by brokendownangel ^Pro

NO, NO, NO. do not email him to ask him if he was planning to email you back - if he is he will and if you keep emailing and contacting him he will start thinking you are stalking him - men are like that. If he doesn't email you today I would email him tomorrow and tell him you won't be going to the do with him because you refuse to lay down and b more…

In response to: "'Cos I got time while she got freedom..'" 196 days old
by Pinkabell [Member]

Yeah, you are completely right. I think I was just having a bit fo a weird day and when I heard that song again it just got me thinking too much.
I'm sure there are logical reasons why he may not have replied but I shall see what happens the next few days and take it from there.
To be honest though he is making it easier and easier f more…

In response to: "'Cos I got time while she got freedom..'" 196 days old
by brokendownangel ^Pro

Maybe he had turned the computer off so hasn't even seen the email yet? Or maybe he is playing games - you will know next week when he is back at work for sure. If he wants to get in touch hun he will, it's that simple, you are beating yourself up over him not replying, and are giving him control over your life. moVE on, and if he emails he emai more…

In response to: "Another day" 200 days old
by Pinkabell [Member]

Yeah, I will get it looked at. I don't think it's really helping things at the moment.
I am, I just feel a bit overwhelmed with having this essay to complete and feel that time is running out for it - although really I could just do it in the resit period in a few months if I have to.
Part of me wants to forget him but another part of m more…

In response to: "Another day" 200 days old
by brokendownangel ^Pro

I think you need to have this sleep pattern looked at , it's not right to sleep all that time. Although the less you do the more tired you get. Try and do something productive each day, even something small like a short walk or go to a park and have a go on the swings - always good for blowing cobwebs away! Forget the bloke - let him come to you more…

In response to: "Just a blip" 201 days old
by Pinkabell [Member]

Aww, that's really sad. I'm sorry that happened, I hope you managed to find happiness with someone else too.
Me and my ex broke up and when we got back together he didn't seem to want to commit again and I just couldn't help feeling like he was using me so I told him to leave.
He kept telling me how much he misses me and going on about more…

In response to: "Just a blip" 201 days old
by Pinkabell [Member]

Yeah, In my stronger moments I agree with your way of thinking, that my ex is always going to be influenced by his friend and do what this friend wants him to do and I don't want the input of a third party constantly attempting to control our relationship.
It's just my weaker moments when all my feelings for him flare up and I think of how more…

In response to: "Just a blip" 201 days old
by brokendownangel ^Pro

Glad the dog is doing ok. Your sleeping needs to be addressed really, it could be a sign of depression or as you say habit, you need to try and break it if you can.
As for your ex's friend, I would email him and tell him why you don't like him, bringing it all up, and explaining that you are worried for your ex as he doesn't seem like much o more…

In response to: "Just a blip" 201 days old
by peteranthony [Member]

Don't worry too much about your ex.I messed up a long time ago and I still think about her every day.By the time I knew my true feelings for her, she had tired of waiting and married someone else.To this day I regret the way that I treated her.All this happened fifty years ago.but I still think about her every day. Peter. more…

In response to: "Dogs, football and that essay" 202 days old
by Pinkabell [Member]

Yeah, you're right. It definitely did me more good getting out than doing my essay would have. I have more opportunities to do my essay at the moment then to go out as well so I may as well grab them when I can!

She seems to be doing fine so as long as we don't allow her to do too much the next few days I think it should all go well. more…

In response to: "Dogs, football and that essay" 202 days old
by Pinkabell [Member]

Yeah, I finally managed to realise that I wasn't helping myself by just sitting around moping and now that I'm keeping busy and enjoying myself more I'm not as bothered about the lack of contact between us...(at the moment, so lets hope it stays that way).

It's weird, when I watch football on TV I find that sometimes I really enjoy it, more…

In response to: "Dogs, football and that essay" 202 days old
by brokendownangel ^Pro

It is fab that your day was good, and it is great to get out into the fresh air and do something different for a change. I dont think guilt should come into being unproductive anyway - some days that is just the way it goes. Glad the dog is doing ok, hope all goes well at the vet on Wednesday
have a good day today. :) more…

In response to: "Dogs, football and that essay" 202 days old
by Ellestern [Member]

Well somebody's mind if off the infamous ex, and that's great, right?

Really happy you had a good day. I think football is just one of those things that women would never be able to genuinely enjoy for more than 3-4 times in their lives. Never did that to me, but hey, it's different when you go and see it with someone you love.
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In response to: "All the little things" 202 days old
by Pinkabell [Member]

Yeh, it does feel good with every little bit I complete and knowing I'm one step closer to the end.
Yeh, I think that she'll be just fine - she just needs to take it easy which she doesn't like doing!
I have been proved that recently. Maybe before all this happened I was in too much of a rush to really notice or fully appreciate the thi more…

In response to: "All the little things" 203 days old
by brokendownangel ^Pro

well done for getting the plan done, you are off to a good start honestly.
Hope the wee dog is ok, it is dreadful what he went through, but he has you now and you love and care for him. Hope he gets well soon x
People are generally kind if they get the chance - but it is nice to be reminded of it x more…

In response to: "productive day tomorrow instead?" 204 days old
by brokendownangel ^Pro

hope you slept well and wake refreshed to start the day anew x more…

In response to: "I want him here now" 205 days old
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In response to: "Thinking Positively" 205 days old
by Pinkabell [Member]

Yeah, it's quite amazing how different I feel. I think that being bed bound for so long made me feel pretty useless and because I can't really do much I couldn't cope how I normally would. Instead of drowning in worry with the thought of everything I have to do I know that even if I can't achieve everything on my list straight away, it shouldn't be more…