I'm completely knackered. Again, I don't seem to have really done anything especially tiring or achieved much either. I woke up at a reasonable time after at least 7 hours of sleep and fell asleep for another 20 minutes or so. I got up at 9 to sort a few things out by phone and then this girl who I'd been quite good mates with until about the time she spat at my ex-boyfriend on my birthday one year and couldn't tell me one single reason why she'd felt the need to do it, rang.

Turns out that she hadn't suddenly felt copious amounts of guilt and was sorry for all the trouble she had caused that night, nor was she sorry for constantly calling my ex a prick or various other names. She wasn't calling just to catch up on 'old times' or because she's heard I'd had an accident and wanted to check I was okay either. Infact she didn't ask how I was once.

Instead she told me how annoying it was that the bailiff's, on behalf of the electricity company of our last shared house, were ringing her constantly everyday. That she was getting sick of it and it was becoming quite stressful. Yes I agreed, it wasn't nice. I'd put up with it for 6 months - six months of being threatened, feeling bullied and understress, when I had been first to pay my share. When I had tried to get in touch with everyone, try to get people to pay their shares she hadn't seemed bothered to reply to my emails or return my calls.

Now it seems as if she wants me to sort it for her. I spent so long trying to get this sorted and ended up so stressed about it that apparently my dad was talking about paying off the remaining debt (that belonged to a few of my other housemates) just because he was concerned at how upset and stressed it was making me. I only found that out a few hours ago but it gave me a good feeling, to know how much they care. I am glad he didn't end up paying it though because I was determined I wouldn't pay just because someone else didn't want to and I would have ended up feeling guilty about it.

Anyway, the girl who rang me told me that it was another girl, who she was closest to, who hadn't paid and she didn't intend on paying either. She said she didn't know what to do. I gave her this girls home address and phone number of her parents and that's all I can really do. I'm not willingly taking on that stress again, I've already got more than enough for me to deal with at the moment.

I think other than that though everything's been pretty good. Still get the odd wonder about the ex and still not at all sure what to do. Feel a bit like he's finally decided to get on with his life so I should forget him and get on with mine. Maybe it is for the best. Only it does upset me. Maybe I still don't know what I want.

I've been finding it hard to stay awake all day and now I'm not sure if I feel like I can sleep. Hopefully once I get into bed I will. Funny how I either seem to be desperately trying to get to sleep or desperately trying to stay awake these days.